have been into the house of obstacles, where there is no door for the happiness.already left the career and life behind ,while again looking forward for the quiet moment.remember the day, how painful it was,when they hit the heavy wood into the belly of a 6 month pregnant lady. the fear of losing the unborn baby is wonderful.never thought to be saved by god.yes god has done magical things to save both mother and baby.there must be some precious moment saved for the future.how difficult it is to smile,when things were not in  favor,how difficult to breathe peacefully.Now within a month u are about to born, and i have nothing to give u except my motherhood.i know not how i will grow u up in such a situation where there is no right to do what u want to do.people will do drama for the entertainment while the others were forcefully need to stand to enjoy the crappy mind.Oh god, please dont give such painful moment , they may not able to breathe further.lost all will and hope.its 1 o clock in the night and difficult to sleep.its dark over here.the grapes were scattered into the table,glasses were half-filled,clothes lying on the ground and the surrounding is chilled.the clock is moving ,as if they need to attend the funeral of a beautiful woman.how beautifully the life of women dissected into this world by the cruel verge of time.indeed,feel like to observe the dissecting pieces of their life.while observing the pieces,i found an unsolved puzzle.No more brain to solve the puzzle but curious to know the outcome.when i give it to someone to solve,he said "image of an innocent white rose bud".how beautiful it is to feel the black and white of life.why god has created so many colors.why the sky is blue?why the blood is red? why the sunflower is yellow? why the birds were colorful?is it bcoz ,god has an option to choose.how beautifully he has created the whole world into colorful one then why he made some life into a black and white,where there is no option to color their own life.i know not where i will go,towards the crashing waves or towards the lords to pray or towards the dawn or towards the customs and traditions.tender eyes feel like to smile with the gentle wind.calm nerves feel like to enjoy the wide open sky.soft swelling feet feel like to walk alone near the woods.Moon is smiling,stars were twinkling.how beautiful the night is!!! honestly,imagination has no boundaries and walls.whatever imagination it may be or will be,for a while it helps to forgot the painful moments.being suffered from heavy tonsilitis,it is quite difficult to swallow the food for the hungry baby inside.time to sleep.............

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