Nothing matters,everything is dull and meaningless.No more steps to find the real meaning of life.Just going on and on and on..............dark night, red eyes,warm body,painful feet,..........hmmmmm......people dont have rights to feel feverish. though feel like to question  myself why ? but no more why ,....suffering itself has a new meaning,it brings new tragical optimism inside me.why the hell the nerves still believes life will be beautiful. Preserve memories need new definition but when i tried hell lot of consequences interfere while i ended up with nothing just an old rucksack full of thoughts and emotions.Y there are so many noises in this world? look even i dont like the noises of this stupid key board they how the mind will bear the thousand other noises.what if the world will be numb for a while then i think life would be little different.what to say? so much of obstacles need to cross, the milestone itself is a source of suffering, how could a normal heart bear such painful life? what more to say? words itself has their own restriction? what next ? Next is nothing but one more dark night then one more then one more...........finally one day........every end has its own beginning......???????????????

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