Happy New Year 2013

My first post.......Happy New Year sunshine !!!!!!!!!!!!! pata nahi yeh saal kya leke aayega............ek chota sa baby.......hope life would be change.......ooops i will be the mother of a child.  welcome baby to 2013. I love the feeling when u give me a sweet kick inside my womb. i am feeling you every moment. eagerly waiting for the day when i will hug you. Hope the feeling would be same when we hug our loved one. Come soon baby.

iti.......

Movies i have seen "2012"

Hollywood movies

1. Cube
2. Into the wild (awesome adventurous movie)
3. Rise of the planet apes
4. Lincoln 2012
5. I am david
6. Amadeus(biographical movie of famous Music composer Mozart)
7. Sophies choice (holocaust movie)
8. Da vinci code
9. Terminal
10. Malena

Bollywood movies

1. Jab tak hain jaan
2. Khaff
3. shudra the rising
4. cocktail
5. Bawarchi
6  English vinglish
7  Jaana Pehchana

TV Series
1. Boys before flowers (Korean series)
2. My girl (Korean series)
3. Prison break (season one)

Books i have read "2012"

1. Can Love Happen Twice By Ravinder singh
2. I know why the caged bird sings by Maya Angelou
3. Man search for meaning by Victor E Frankyl
4. The road less travelled by Scott M Peck
5. Siddharth by Herman Hesse
6. Ramayan by Tulsidas
7. Bhagwad Gita
8. Harivansh Puran
9. Poor little rich slum by rashmi bansal
10. The private lives of famous people
11. Magic by Rhonda Bryne

Thought of to read many more but have i ever learnt anything from the above.......i hope yes. Those little books were the moment of joy and happiness. Dont know how many more to store for the further future.dont know what would be my book list...i hope it would be more towards children stories and the art of parenting............

iti

Never thought of life would be like this..........having a creative mind is not enough, fate always wins.Knowing everything is not enough, destiny always play. Planned to do so many things,planned to read children stories,planned to listen mozart,planned to feel fragrance, planned to play music but ended up with nothing.Only the disturbances of uncultured mind distract.Now its fool to feel sad, as this is life and it will be like this only. Creativity does not play any role only physical activity people demands. How could a mind feel with his same daily repeatitive routine activities. whatever..........

Its good to feel when other succeed with flying colors. May every sweet sunrise bring happiness and love into their lives. May the lips always twist with cute smile. May their journey of life filled with good people. it does not matter what the feeling is.Nothing matters in life. The only thing that matter is what time wants........what Next ..........Next is not a dream any more. Its being a long while i have ever seen a dream......................huh dream..........?????????????????

iti

Love this song tanhayee

Tanhaai, tanhaai
Dil ke raaste mein kaisi thokar maine khaayi
Toote khwaab saare, ek maayusi hai chhaayi
Har khushi so gayi, zindagi kho gayi
Tumko jo pyaar kiya maine to sazaa main paayi
Tanhaai, tanhaai, milo hai phaili hui tanhaai 

(Khwaab mein dekha tha ek aanchal
Maine apne haathon mein
Ab toote sapnon ke shishe
Chubte hai in aankhon mein
Kal koi tha yahin, ab koi bhi nahin
Banke naagin jaise hai saanson mein laheraayi
Tanhaai, tanhaai, palkon pe kitne aansu hai laayi 
(Kyoon aisi umeed ki maine
Jo aise naakaam hui
Door banaayi thi manzil
To raste mein hi shaam hui) -
Ab kahan jaaoon main, kisko samjhaaoon main
Kya maine chaaha tha aur kyoon kismat mein aayi
Tanhaai, tanhaai, jaise andhero ki ho gehraayi
Dil ke raaste mein kaisi thokar maine khaayi
Toote khwaab saare, ek maayusi hai chhaayi
Har khushi so gayi, zindagi kho gayi
Tumko jo pyaar kiya maine to sazaa main paayi
Tanhaai, tanhaai, milo hai phaili hui tanhaai
Tanhaai, tanhaai, tanhaai, tanhaai

Nothing matters,everything is dull and meaningless.No more steps to find the real meaning of life.Just going on and on and on..............dark night, red eyes,warm body,painful feet,..........hmmmmm......people dont have rights to feel feverish. though feel like to question  myself why ? but no more why ,....suffering itself has a new meaning,it brings new tragical optimism inside me.why the hell the nerves still believes life will be beautiful. Preserve memories need new definition but when i tried hell lot of consequences interfere while i ended up with nothing just an old rucksack full of thoughts and emotions.Y there are so many noises in this world? look even i dont like the noises of this stupid key board they how the mind will bear the thousand other noises.what if the world will be numb for a while then i think life would be little different.what to say? so much of obstacles need to cross, the milestone itself is a source of suffering, how could a normal heart bear such painful life? what more to say? words itself has their own restriction? what next ? Next is nothing but one more dark night then one more then one more...........finally one day........every end has its own beginning......???????????????

iti

god knows !!!!!!!

gods preserve all  tears !!!!!!!!!!
sufferings will not be in vain !!!!!!!!!!
god has his own plan .
only god knows what he wants ?

Grey life !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

early sunrise reminds me  of all the memories which is behind back meanwhile, the limping pigeon attracts my attention towards her suffering.The noisy train is the only toy which brings joy into my life.Sweet sunshine is so near but still distances is quite meaningful.weeks went by, months went by while years seems itself a small life.everytime i used to questioned to the life, but today when i look up into the sky, waiting for the sunrise, life questioned me....till now what u have done for me. I numb,the aeroplane up above the sky distrant my mind and i wish for the strangers. May god fullfill all their dreams. what a joyful moment it was !!!!!!!!! searching for the answer, i thought to give a meaning to my life but there is always a but......why to move on ? when there is an option to stand still. stand still like a painting. I remember the colorful canvas.Life is so beautiful in black and white with tint of grey.Oh i wish i would paint one more with just charcoal black only..................
More to say......i am not done.............but need to cook my brain for the needy people with the spices of my thought and with salty tears.will come back with a new dish served in a bowl of  my grey life.


iti...........

"I am David"

Ofcourse i am not, its an awesome inspirational movie to watch not only for the caged people but also for those who want to free like a bird. It does not matter whether it is inside a concentration camp or inside a family.whatever it juggles up your mind with positive sense for a while rest depends on the nerves how they analyse the determination of life inside the golden cage.

iti.......

"in between"

When i look back &,
When i move forward,
There in between a life...........

A life 
when i realize &,
when i dream,
There in between YOU & I.......

A  Memories
When i think of YOU,&
when i see you,
There in between a journey...........

A Journey,
when i remember &
when i erase the tears,
There in between a smile.........

A smile,
which forced me to believe and hope that
"Life will be beautiful"

iti

WHATEVER, INDEED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The height of patience,
The level of cruelty,
The stage of Numbness,
The emotions of Minute,
The hands of customs,
The name of traditions,
The rudeness of Mind,
The power of Destiny,
The suicide of Dream,
The feather of Pigeon,
The light of Rays,
The gentle breeze of sky,
The lonely stars,
The footsteps of innocence,
The rought surface,
The tender touch of feeling,
The snapshot of memories,
The jouney of unknown,
The noise of train,
The dark morning,

whatever, Indeed "THE BURDEN OF LIFE".

ITI